I want to be good friends
You are one of the few ppl I truly value in my life
I understand it will take some time
but I'm not willing to give up
I want us to be best friends for a very very long time
Her words warm my heart a bit as I realize she does value what we had. Simultaneously, my mind scoffs as she uses the words not willing to give up as I clearly realize now that she had just walked away from our relationship a month ago.
The bitterness sets in and like a kid on the playground with the ball and toys, my first impulse is to refuse to play at all if I am not first pick.
I reflect on her words further as the day continues. She had asked me what I want from our relationship at this point, and I honestly answered, "because of the hurt right now, I cannot tell. I do not know what I want or what I am ready for."
Today, I laugh at my own hypocrisy and how I have always questioned others on how at one point they wanted to marry a person, and now they cannot even simply be friends.
Some may say she is being selfish for wanting the best of me while not giving me what I need. I think the selfishness is my own as I want something from her she cannot give.
I have decided that I will continue our friendship and if any point of my life I had wanted to marry this girl, in this moment, surely I would want to be friends. I will be grateful for what relationship I do have with this other soul and we will move one day at a time. I appreciate and am grateful for even the least of things. She wants to be best best friends. That is saying a lot from a girl that has no time for many people in her life.
We will take one day at a time. Moving forward, maybe we will be friends until we find another. Maybe we will be best friends until one or the other gets married. And just maybe, we can be best friends for a very very long time.
Lets not speculate.
Time will tell.
Comments (10)
*hugs* good for you!it's something so many people fail to do...
very rational.
I know exactly how she feels.
It will not be easy.
Girls are the weirdest creatures. They never REALLY say what it is they want to say. The best to you
Good luck with that. I hope life unfolds in the way that will help you grow the most
@youngvan - dude amen to that...
personally never been able to be friends with someone i dated, but it's not like i date them for long. or if it's a break up, it was over something super serious so there's no way i'd stick around for more abuse. it's all in the way people say things too. good luck
"Some may say she is being selfish for wanting the best of me while
not giving me what I need. I think the selfishness is my own as I want
something from her she cannot give. "
it could go both ways because asking a broken heart to give something is also sometimes asking for something that cannot be given. She may want something from you that you find you cannot give...
This is so sensitive. Keep learning and growing. I'm praying for your heart and admire that you are putting your own selfishness aside to be there for her, to be her friend. It takes a lot to give that to someone while you want or even possibly need more from them.
@xXrEMmUsXx - agree with you through and through and i thank you for your kind words
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