"I am leaving my company to work for a startup."

"Quitting my job to travel."

"Moving across country to be with him."

"Leaving my girlfriend for her."

Risk.  We want what is on the other side of the mountain while refusing to leave the comforts of our own home.   What is worse is when we are willing to venture out into the world, we are still filled with doubt.  Doubt that what we are moving towards is worth it.  This doubt coupled with our friends' efforts to protect us from hurting ourselves makes the journey that much harder.

At the end of the day, the path towards love and greatness must be traveled alone.  Only you know the love you feel and only you know the greatness you seek.  Others can and will always try to empathize, but your life is not theirs to live.   

I don't know the answers.  I don't know where we are going. But I am willing to take the risks.  

I believe the hardest thing we will ever do is to leave what we know is good in hope for what is great.

I love my father as you probably love yours.  I can overcome mountains and take on whatever the world can throw at me, but I cannot handle one thing.   My father's death.   

My father has told me recently, "I will always worry about you. That is what Fathers do.  I will worry about you even after I die."

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Love.  Pure sacrifice.  I feel his love towards me.   My car got stolen again.   Third time this year.   I have no idea why, but there is something about an Acura TL that is so seductive that every robber wants to get.   I came home today tired from another 11 hour work day.   I told my father to go hang out and spend time with his friends.  He said, "What am I suppose to do? Walk?!?"

His words hurt.  I had borrowed his car for work as in prior incidents when my car gets stolen.   He thought about me first before he even thought about himself.   He wanted me to go out and have fun before his own plans.  This is love.

I love my Father.   He means to the world to me.  I hope I can become half the man He is one day.   

Peace is truly hard to find between people.  Not the peace of cordiality or not fighting, but when two people can enter each other's space and simply become one.

Imagine you are lake and when ever you friends come to visit you, they toss a stone into it.   With someone you are so intimate with,  you never have to change.  Their presence does not disrupt you in any way.   You can continue to do whatever you are doing with their presence or not.  You flow in and out of each other's presence with such ease that it seems you are hanging out with yourself and loving every moment of it.

This can be only had between two delicate souls that have chose to intertwine or just so happen to beat at the same frequency.  

However, the rest of the world,  when they enter into our worlds, we turn "on."

"On" is that appearance that we are funny, sociable, charismatic, and all other positive traits type of person.   One of my favorite people I hang out with from time to time was one time crying to me and talking about some serious matter.   We are great friends and we can be whatever we want to be in front of each other.  No bullshit.  No judgement.   She was in mid story of telling me the things she is going through tears barely being held behind her eyes and then a mutual friend comes and sits with us.  Without a hesitation and a blink of an eye,  she turn "on."  Nothing is wrong and we are all shits and giggles.   

What I am trying to say is we are fake  ... at times.  We are living our instagram lives and showing the world how well we eat, how good our jobs are, and how happy we are in our relationships.   When you find someone you can be off with and be yourself, stick to them.   It is hard to find someone you can be yourself with.   To show hurt and vulnerability and to let them in and say nothing is really okay but I know we will all get there.

To be known is to be loved.  Thank you.  Thank you for being in my life.